Have been feeling rather emo lately.. But the emoness is unexpressesable.. Find that it is really a art when it comes to human interaction.. What works well for one, may works the opposite for another.

As people grow older, your connection and bonds will shrink? Does it just happened to me, or almost everyone or two others.. Missed the bondings i have with frens.. In the past, weekends are well spent, with meaningful bonding session... But now, my weekends, are mostly burnt by my laptop... Seldom or rarely i could find people whom wants to go out... maybe because im kinda tired of organising and taking the initiative to organise.. The others are most probably waiting for the outings arrangement too.. Or mayb, they also wan to cut their connections with me...

OMG!!! I am becoming more negative....

Is it due to the stress i had at my "work place"? or the hostilic attitude and treatment i got from my "colleage" who claims that he is there not to make frens with people whom he dun wan to be fren with, in front of me... Which honestly, i dun care la.. cos i dun treat him as my fren also.. hahx.. but im not his level, which stoop to sarcastic criticism and isolating contacts with me.. Help everyone, but not me? Im fine... I will take it in my stride... And i will still help you, though i dun like you, but im not tt petty when you need help i wont help.. hahx.. i am a few level above your childish and petty standard..

Yeah.. now trying hard to get a post out of my current workplace.. Cos i dun wanna work in a environment with someone who can be so self centred and calculative... But seems like, lady luck hasnt notice me for very long le...

Hope my luck will turn for the better....